Obeying when you don't understand it.

I'm sorry I cried Lord I tried not to really I did. But what you showed me I felt in my heart that I could take care of. I don't want to try again I just want to cry. Why lord am I not good enough? Do I not pray hard enough? I praised your name when know one else want's to. I feel I have a good heart. Maybe a little to good? Lord you gave me 28yrs on this Earth why haven't you give me what my heart desires most? You put those desires in my heart. I don't want to move on I still just want to cry. Forgive me for being this weak Lord. And the lord speaks " My dear sweet child I love you and I will never leave you, Your going through this but your not alone I am with thee. Your right my precious child I put those desires in you for a very good reason. Hold on to your faith. Hold on to your desires. I always finish what I started." I trust you Lord, Thank you for the time you gave me with her. Thank you for everything that you have given me and that your going to give me. In his service