Persistence

I was at first and only at first disappointed about that but I now know I have friend's who care for me and will always be there to cheer me up. Some very good friend even heard it in my voice that something was wrong, very impressive. I feel too, I wasn't ready for it mentally come to think of it. But physically I know I am. One friend, I was so down I couldn't talk and was try to avoiding her questions. But she kept at it until I anwsered her questions. But the lord put the very best people in my life when I needed them the most. I still am leaving to TX, to pursue my dream what kind of christian will I be if I didn't have faith in what I wanted. Thank you lord for everything that you given me and that your going to give me. And for my special friend who always know's exactly what to say to make me feel better. In his service

Love never fails

I feel I'm be tested by God. I feel he 's testing me to see how much I want a certain life. I noticed I'm being attacked even more since I told a friend that I loved her. By women of coarse to give in to my flesh and lust over them. I admit I do see them but I block it off as soon as it comes into my head. Becuase the bible say's if you lust over a girl you are committing adultry with that girl. Luckily Christ gives me the strength in that area. My friend's name is B, she too is a follower of Christ and is a very good mother to, two little blessings who I have met. I pray daily for the health, happiness, and well being of her and her two boy's. Lord I will past your test, and glorify your name as I recieve it today. In his service

In God We Trust

Lord I did feel so alone these past weeks trying to make sense of my life. But you have the bigger picture for my life and my future. I was so affraid of my own future once, before becoming a christian. And giving my life to you oh lord. Even though I'll never understand your purpose for the things that happen in my life. Practicing my faith will only make me stronger. I'm willing to give up what matters to me the most, lord. I know when I think the world is ending it's only just a new beginning, my ways are not your ways. I trust in you my savior, to fulfill the deepest desire of my heart. I pray she will find happiness even though it will never be with me. In his service

Thorns before the roses

I lived my entire life his ^ way, done everything to the best of my knowledge that God may love thee. And still nothing. It's as if I'm cursed or something. Non christian even have it better. Meaning some people my family included gave into their flesh, "excluding my brother Jason" didn't do the Lord's will yet they have someone. I'll be perfectly honest I want to give up and give into my flesh. It's so hard I get attacked daily. I want to save myself for marriage but I know I'm fighting a losing battle. My brothers tease me saying everyone does it, its just the world we live in. I want the feel to finally kiss a girl but I know when I can't take no more I have to keep going. Because when you prepare yourself for the worst the best always happens. In his service

Got Faith?

I love this blog, its like a online journal. I like writing to people but I don't think the feeling is mutual. So I just write to myself. My brother Kerry is having fiancial problems I think everyone does sooner or later. Luckily the lord knew this would happen so he blessed me as his older brother. This is my life a lonely highway at night, going through it alone. But When all is said and done God Remains and so does his love. In his service

Enter Duane

Hello, I finally created my blog today, Coooooooooool. I feel sad most of the time because I miss a friend of mine but I'll be ok. I'm leaving soon back home to south TX to pursue a dream job of mine. I tried and failed it once, back in 05' but the future will always belong to the ones who follow there great vision's.